saudade.

Monday, August 11, 2008

i need to tell you somehow, i need your love right now (and always)

today was yay :D

woke up at 8 (amazingly and i think it's a first) and met my friend at 9.
was so surprised when he offered to meet me at Yishun.
i asked why and his reason was:
" it's always a good habit to fetch a lady if possible."
*rolls eyes*
and when did he develop such habits.
went to watch Money No Enough 2 at cineleisure and we were like super early please.
the ticketing counter wasn't even open, lol.
well, we kinda just sat around and admired wall.e *laughs*
but wall.e is SO adorable can! eve too!
the movie was alright, just that i almost doubled over in laughter during one part of the show.
and i was so cold and he was really nice to lend me his jacket, haha.
went to eat at Hip Diner USA after the movie, a branch of Billy Bombers.
the portion of the burger was HUGE.
had a hard/spluttering/laugh-out-loud time trying to take a bite outta the burger.
cos i was trying to do it glam-ly, which i failed.
but the milkshake was AWESOME! haha, as usual.
it was definitely a fulfilling experience.

was suppose to go study with xun and rox at JE but in the end,
i got tempted to go shopping! stupid stupid.
he was like
"come on lah, you know you want to, i'll pay."
and he really meant it, i was like *stunned*
but of course i didn't get anything, wouldn't feel good if i did.
though i did get Famous Amos cookies! :D
walked around in orchard then went to study for apprx. 1 hour,
(so as to lessen the guilt)
then met up with j and a, haha.
fun fun fun! they were so interesting and i suddenly realised that a isn't as blur as he seems.
haha, just kidding.

they went to watch Money No Enough at AMK and i so wanted to join them
but since i've watched it already, i decided to give it a miss.
plus the fact that i was pathetically BROKE.
went to meet my mum at city hall instead.
ate at this place call Shokudo, if i remember correctly, please pardon me if i get the name wrong.
it was styled in the same way as Marche, as in the way you pay,
except that all the food were japanese cuisine.
the food was quite good, enjoyed my meal.
toady was relatively happy, so ya, guess i'm really grateful for it.

and i found new gym partners! *smiles*

back to school tomorrow, feeling kinda sian.
at the same time expectant.
cos i know i'll never get bored sitting next to b.
haha, he's like an entertaining machine ;D
omg, i need to finish my maths ws 5! dang.

as she looked through the cards he gave her last christmas,
she couldn't help but bite back her tears.
as she flipped through the cards,
she knew that she should have put it all away in that big box.
but so far, she hasn't found the courage to do so.
this one line caught her eyes, it read.
"... and between now and then, till i see you again i'll be loving you,
love me."
it took every ounce of will power to not cry, that she had promised herself.
but deep down she knew that her heart was crying, real hard.
it's already been 4 months since everything ended, yet she still couldn't let go.
it's almost impossible, because he had been a a part of her, and still is somehow.
she knew when she first started that she was taking a gamble,
then, she didn't know what the stakes were, now she did.
she gambled with her entire heart as the bet.
every bit of it, she had laid it all down.
did he still love her?
did he still think about her the way she thought about him?
fear churned inside her, cause she knew that she was afraid to know the answers.
to outsiders, even to her friends, she seemed silly.
she was only 15, she shouldn't be so hung up over a guy.
sometimes she wished she knew why she felt this way too.
she loved him, and still does.
to outsiders it may seem like she has moved on,
hanging out with so many people,
so many different guys but if they had taken the effort to take a closer look,
they would have known that there was nothing,
absolutely nothing that could ever replace him.
her heart still belonged to him.
and between now and then, till she sees him again,
the day when they'll start talking again,
she'll be loving him, as long as it takes.