saudade.

Friday, October 03, 2008

& if you leave me tonight, i'll wake up alone.
so stay close, don't go.

ok, i sound like as if i'm writing my title for someone but if you're clever,
you'll know that i'm not.

i'm totally loving friday/friday night outings and the FNG.
now i understand why choo says that she looks forward to friday night outings.
it's like a remedy for the entire week, just to go out and chill and just have fun.
it's a breather, seriously.

asked a couple of people to study on wed, and i had to wait for them for like 1 hour?
lol, super late please. plus i was having a headache, so couldn't really study.
extremely horrible cause i swear i could feel my head pounding like mad and on the verge of explosion.
but still, went to swim and halfway through the swim i was like dying with the headache
but thank god, i survived ;D hahaha.
then went to JE with hc ytd, haha, have been hanging out quite a bit with the sec 2s the last few days
cause they're such fun!
then went home to study for lit.
funny huh, cause usually lit do not need studying but since i'm absolutely clueless about Brick Lane,
due to the fact that half the time i'm sleeping in lit class, i had to buck up.
and i actually enjoyed the later part of the book.

was suppose to have training today but it was cancelled.
and on our way outta school, we saw something... out of the ordinary.
BIG MAMA, lol.
just hope it wasn't a prank or something.
then headed to island creamery(!) to study with lx and xm.
haha, had brownie with nutella ice cream and it felt like such a blessing!
anyway, we moved on to macs after that cause we needed tables for studying.
finished the chem paper and did some revision for hist.
the rest of the time was spent laughing and cam-whoring.
super fun please, was rocking with laughter.

and something freaky happened.
when i was walking towards the bus stop alone,
there was this indian that was walking past me and he suddenly said
"hello, i love you."
i was like STUNNED. wth man.
?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
__ asked me whether i told him fcuk in his face and i replied,
"i was so stunned i couldn't say anything."
so eew lah *SHUDDERS*
i wished people won't do freaky things like that, argh.

managed to go for HOF today.
after service, was teasing g like crazy, and now looking back i think i feel kinda bad.
hahahaha, but i'm sure he'll take it in his stride.
anyway, i think what i said was pretty true :) hahahaha.

the lit paper today was not too well done.
i think my prob is that i have the info and content, just that i don't know how to answer it well.
sighs, that has gotta be my greatest weakness man.

anyways, really enjoyed myself today.
i feel so happy now! :D

" Whenever we are told something, before we receive it into our minds and hearts, we must put it to the test.

We open a book, we turn a newspaper page, we allow the television and the radio to come into our homes.

All the things we are told everyday- are they true?

She waited for him to continue.

When the imam speaks, it is not the word of God. Does he speak true? It is easier to believe than not to believe.

Just think about gossip. The things our mothers told us, that fill out bones like marrow.

We learned them before we learned to question.

All this, all this and more. Because it is possible for a man to lie to himself.

And a woman too.

Chanu looked away from her. He spoke to his coat.

A heart says this and that, it shouts and makes a big scene.

But put it to the test and sometimes you will find it out for what it is: a big and hollow noise.

When you feel so strongly that it can't be questioned, you have to ask yourself -- is this true? "

-Brick Lane