saudade.

Friday, December 26, 2008

& the truth is plain and stark for all to see, ego amo te

du bist min, ich bin din:
des solt du hewis sin;
du bist beslozzen in minem herzen,
verlorn ist daz sluzzelin:
du muost och immer darinne sin.

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OMG OMG OMG.

ROBERT PATTINSON HAS GOTTA BE THE HOTTEST PERSON AROUND.

just look at those photos,

can't you feel your heart throbbing real hard????

cause i know mine does :D

(i feel gay saying this)

plus plus plus, you know what?

NEW MOON IS DUE TO COME OUT LATE 2009 OR EARLY 2010.

idk why but i can't help it if everytime i think of robert pattinson,

or see twilight posters,

i just have this happiness bubbling up inside of me

and i can't let it out other than squealing out his name and how cute he is.

I MEAN COME ON, MY HEART MELTS EVERYTIME I SEE HIM LAH.

oh yea :D :D :D

went to watch twilight today with my friends.

and i tell you, it was SO WORTH THE 2 HOURS.

cause i got to see robert pattinson's face on big screen, whee!

christmas was spent as usual,

with my relatives coming over to my place for a party.

then went to suntec with my aunt to get a new fan,

and carrefour was SO damn crowded *shakes head*

finished reading the book, The Wedding by nicholas sparks (the sequel to The Notebook)

it's uber sweet and loving, almost as good as The Notebook.

which reminds me, i need to go to Kinokuniya by 29 dec! :X

alright, since it's coming to the end of the year, i think i need to thank some ppl.

i know it's still erm, let me see..... five more days till the end of 2008

but who knows whether i'll be coming online soon, haha

so i shall do it now.

(the numbers DO NOT indicate the level of importance, i'm just naming ppl as i go)

#1 - woman/choo yeap/choo bong/rotting corpse

hey, thanks for being there for me so much of the way.

when i'm down, i KNOW that i can count on you to either cheer me up,

or MAKE me snap outta my misery. no words can describe how thankful i feel.

yes we do have a love/hate relationship but i just want you to know that

the love portion ALWAYS overrides the hate portion.

the gold class, starbucks, niao-ing, cam-whoring, FNG outings,

all of those stuff have kept me aground and sane ever since my heartbreak.

i love you :D

#2 - chew/cloudy

hey, though sometimes you'll tell me that you don't really understand,

but you'll still make an effort to listen.

and that means the world to me :)

thanks for being there when i need a listening ear,

or just be honest abt how i really feel towards certain issues.

yes we do tease you about CHICKEN but it's all done in the name of fun, haha.

as the year draws to a close,

i want you to know that your friendship has been a treasure to me.

i love you :D

#3 - other half

thanks for being my pillar of strength, sorta ;P

you've been real trustworthy and tolerating.

i know sometimes i'm demanding, but you're never angry with me.

sure, there are times when i throw one of my jealous tantrums

but you're always so tolerant, thanks.

your happy-go-luckiness is contagious i swear.

somehow seeing you cheers me up.

i just want you to be happy, no matter who you're with.

i love you lots :D

#4 - lx/ah puah

like what i've said before, you've been the kai xin guo all this while.

spending time with you is never dull;

you never fail to come up with something to make us laugh.

and you've taught me the importance of optimism, thanks.

i love you :D

#5 - the rest of the team

all those training with you guys have somehow pulled me through my toughest moments this year.

i apologize for not being able to name all of you personally cause i haven't spend that much time with you guys. but i'll try.

eSTee, thanks for always being supportive during games

even when i'm playing so very poorly.

but you'll always say "nvm, just try again" and that never fails to encourage me.

and i still remember that when i broke up,

you were the first person i msged, surprisingly.

do you still remember?

your msgs telling me not to do anything foolish,

they really helped.

thanks man, for everything.

rach, MY LEGS ARE NOT SHORTER THAN YOURS.

playing as co-shooters with you never fail to push me to my limit.

really glad to have you as a friend and team mate :D

hanni, it's been a pleasure playing alongside you.

though i don't really like playing against you,

cause you're such a llub, haha, kidding :D

but yea, thanks for being so encouraging.

ethel, you've been an amazing capt.

you are rarely pesimisstic and i just wanted you to know that

i'm very encouraged by you :D

#6 - joel

somehow i'm amazed at how we've become friends,

and at how i've told you so many things, haha.

but all those msgs and talks have really helped me a great deal.

new pespectives and sometimes when all i need is someone to listen,

you're there.

thanks man.

#7 - dorothy and wei xiang

i know that i don't really talk like alot to you guys

but you all have been there when i really needed a friend.

esp wx, i can still remember those nights (or should i say mornings)

when i'll just call you cause i was feeling so very overwhelmed

and how you never seem to mind that i'm always calling at odd hours.

all those words of encouragement and prayers, thanks.

and dor, i should thank you for your cynicsm (is that how you spell it?)

everytime i go out with you, somehow you'll always say something that i need to hear.

thanks.

#8 - fen shen

idk what to type cause if i were to type, idk what would come out

but yea, thanks.

#9 - hyung

though i haven't really known you for that long,

but you've proved to me a good friend.

you're always there to listen to my nonsense and

that means so much to me.

all those times we went out, i really appreciated them.

i actually look forward to it, cause somehow when i go out with you,

i feel happy.

thanks.

#10 - iris

i'm no longer in your g12 but you never seem to mind praying for me

whenever i have probs, i can always turn to you for advice

i'm so sorry for my stubborness, and for lying to you.

but now that it's all said and done, i realized that you were right all along.

thanks for always being there for me, love you :D

#11 - SCB

know why i put your name last?

cause i have so much to say to you.

firstly, I LOVE YOU AS MUCH AS I ALWAYS DID.

sure we're in different schools now but even after 3 years,

it hasn't affected our friendship.

meeting up with you are always a treat, a highlight in my schduele.

everyday i pray that our friendship will always stay strong.

secondly, I MISS YOU SO MUCH.

since we're both such busy people, we rarely get to meet up.

and sometimes, (i've gotta be honest),

i catch myself reliving those memories,

and smiling at them as they run through my mind.

thirdly, I AM SO THANKFUL TO HAVE YOU AS MY FRIEND.

when i was feeling down and out, you were there.

you were there to hold my head up high for me,

when all i wanted to do was to give up.

somehow, you never judged me.

you never saw me the way others do,

you KNEW the person i really was.

even when the whole world thought i was bad,

you made me believe that there was a tinge of goodness in me.

the feeling inside of me is indescribable.

I LOVE YOU TRUCKLOADS :D

i'm really sorry if i missed out anyone,

cause i'm real tired already.

i promise i'll update the list again if i think of anyone i missed out.

plus this is a really long post :X